The grief-stricken father of Logan Steinwede has opened up about the sudden death of the much-loved surfer, admitting his son found life ‘very difficult’.
Mat Steinwede, 50, took to social media to remember his son who tragically passed away by suicide on Monday.
The just-turned 20-year-old was staying at his grandparents’ house on Sunday before they found him the next morning, Logan’s uncle Dr Justin Coulson revealed.
The grief-stricken father opened up through tears on Thursday in a video uploaded to social media
‘So this is a video I definitely didn’t want to do, but I feel like I need to,’ the distraught father began.
‘So Logan .. died on the weekend. He committed suicide.’
Mr Steinwede added he didn’t want to just post a photo with a caption, as it wasn’t his style nor Logan’s.
‘He’d probably want a quick short video, knowing him,’ he said.
‘It’s hard because he was really loved, you know, obviously by all of us.’
‘We just gotta remember Loges as the funniest guy, who just had the best smile. He was just the best, funnest person,’ the emotional father added.
Mr Steinwede said although life has to go on, he continually questions whether he could have done things differently, waking up and going to sleep in tears.
Mat Steinwede remembered his son as the ‘funniest guy’ who had the ‘best smile’
Mr Steinwede said the young surfer found life ‘difficult’ and turned to alcohol whilst struggling to figure out what he wanted to do in life after graduating
‘Things got strained in the end; he wanted to do life his own way, and it was hard to watch,’ he admitted through tears.
The young surfer found life difficult, turning to alcohol whilst struggling to figure out what he wanted to do in life after graduating.
‘He just didn’t fit in a box. He had lots of energy, he loved things that were outdoors, that’s why surfing was such a focus and relief he could do it his way.
‘People say he’s happier now, but I think he could have been pretty happy here, too.’
Mr Steinwede said that he was always told there was a silver lining in everything that happens, but he didn’t see one this time.
In stark words on social media, Loggan’s uncle Dr Coulson said ‘My nephew died on Sunday night. He died by suicide.’ Logan is pictured
Logan’s death is a reminder of the prevailing issue of young men not talking about how they feel, his heartbroken father said
‘I wish I could have said I love you one more time,’ he said.
He said the family will remember Logan by picking their favourite photos of him and put them around the house.
Logan’s death is a reminder of the prevailing issue of young men not talking about how they feel, the heartbroken father said.
‘His older brother said if he’d just held on a little longer and let us know, we all would have done something. We would have done everything,’ Mr Steinwede added.
‘I have to turn this pain into purpose, and there’s no benefit, but our family is tighter than ever.’
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