Coleen Rooney has detailed her husband Wayne’s mental health struggles in her new autobiography, My Account.
The WAG, 37, spoke candidly about the couple’s marital woes, which she believes were spurred on by Wayne’s alcohol misuse and in turn affected his mental wellbeing.
She revealed that his problems stemmed from ‘the pressure he’s felt ever since he was a young boy’, adding that she’s had to console him when he’s ‘hit rock bottom’ and has witnessed him ‘break down in his own silent way’.
Describing her husband’s history of heavy drinking, Coleen said: ‘Alcohol has a lot to answer for; as far as Wayne is concerned, it’s often been his downfall.
‘Often, when something is bothering Wayne, he bottles it up. Instead of coming out with the thing that’s bothering him, relieving himself of the burden, he pushes it down.’
Heartbreaking: Coleen Rooney has detailed her husband Wayne’s mental health struggles in her new autobiography, My Account, claiming he hit rock bottom and had a breakdown
Confessing she ‘hardly recognises him’ when he’s on a bender, she said her husband will ‘go off on one, behaving in a way that makes everything worse.’
Coleen revealed that in a ‘normal situation’ he is able to control his drinking, but added: ‘There are times, though, when things have gone awry, and he can’t control his drinking, and it’s generally when something is going on in life that he can’t deal with.
‘That’s when he makes bad decisions and doesn’t know what he’s doing or why he’s doing it. He doesn’t wake up in the morning craving a drink, or get violent. This is more like binges when he’s trying to drown something out.’
Wayne’s drunken mistakes have been widely documented over the years.
In 2004 after Wayne, then aged 18, moved to Manchester United, it was discovered that the teenager paid £140 for sex with prostitute Charlotte Glover, 21.
It was also claimed that at a brothel in Liverpool he slept with Gina McCarrick, then 37, and grandmother Patricia Tierney, then 48.
Devastated Coleen stood by her man but didn’t comment publicly on the claims – though later admitted that when the scandal came out she hadn’t yet slept with Wayne herself.
The pair worked through their troubles and wed four years later, though their newlywed bliss was short-lived, as it emerged in 2010 that the footballer had slept with two more prostitutes while Coleen was pregnant with their first son, Kai.
Struggles: Confessing she ‘hardly recognises him’ when he’s on a bender, she said her husband will ‘go off on one, behaving in a way that makes everything worse’
Under fire: Their biggest challenge to date came in 2017 when Wayne was caught drink-driving with Laura Simpson (pictured) in the car
Their biggest challenge to date came in 2017 when Wayne was caught drink-driving with another woman in the car.
She confessed she was plagued with concerns about ‘what if?’ admitting she couldn’t help thinking what would’ve happened if the police hadn’t intervened.
She branded her husband’s behaviour ‘a step too far’, revealing she didn’t think their marriage could be salvaged and, while expecting her fourth child with Wayne, she fled to her parents house with their three sons.
Talking about the criticism, she has faced over the years for standing by her man, she penned: ‘I try not to engage too much in other people’s opinions, but I’ve sometimes seen comments about me that hurt…
‘The people writing those comments don’t know what’s going on behind closed doors or how or why I’ve worked through things with Wayne.
‘I know him through and through. I know how hard he finds certain aspects of his career and being in the limelight; the depression he’s suffered because of it.’
Revealing she’s the one who ‘wears the trousers’ in their relationship, she added: ‘I can’t pretend my marriage to Wayne has been easy; it hasn’t.
‘There have been times when I thought he might be on the brink of a breakdown; in fact, he probably has broken down in his own silent way.
‘There are other times when he’s cried like a baby, and I’ve held him – times when things have gotten too much, and he’s hit rock bottom.’
Detailing the reason behind his struggles, she revealed Wayne had been struggling with the downside of fame since he was a boy.
She explained: ‘Over the years, people have criticised not only the things he’s done but the way he looks, the way he talks, his performance on the pitch, and the decisions he’s made for the good of his family.
‘It’s always there, bubbling just under the surface. It’s all those voices that won’t allow him to love or even like himself sometimes. And when the low points come, it’s hard to know what to do apart from suggesting he talk to someone professional.
‘I know he finds that hard, though, speaking honestly, from the heart, about himself and his feelings.
‘Wayne can be romantic and caring, and he certainly isn’t afraid to show me that side of himself. He just can’t seem to offer that love and care to himself.’
Wayne revealed this week how he would drink until he ‘almost passed out’ to escape his struggles at the peak of his career.
In a new podcast hosted by rugby league legend Rob Burrow, the Birmingham boss admitted he was in a ‘low place for a few years’ after using alcohol as his coping mechanism rather than asking for help.
‘I’ve had many different challenges, both on the pitch and off the pitch, and my release was alcohol,’ said ex-England and Manchester United captain Rooney when asked how he has dealt with tough times in his life.
‘When I was in my early 20s, I’d spend a couple of days at home and wouldn’t move out of the house and drink almost until I passed out.
‘I didn’t want to be around people because sometimes you feel embarrassed and sometimes you feel like you’ve let people down.
‘Ultimately, I didn’t know how else to deal with it, so I chose alcohol to try and help me get through that.’
He added: ‘There were people there for me to speak to but I chose not to do that and tried to deal with it myself.
‘When you do that and don’t take the help and guidance of others, you can really be in a low place and I was for a few years with that.
‘Thankfully now I am not afraid to go and speak to people over some issues which I may have.’
Coleen’s autobiography, My Account, is out now.
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Struggles: Wayne would drink until he ‘almost passed out’ to escape his struggles at the peak of his career (pictured during his time at Manchester United in which he became captain)
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